Soul Care - My Story
- rjpukehika
- Aug 2, 2022
- 4 min read
Updated: Aug 22, 2023
I had done years and years of therapy.
Psychiatrists had administered copious amounts of pharmaceutical medicine to me:
Anti-Psychotics, Anti-depressants, Mood Stabilizers, Benzodiazepines, Stimulants, Sleep medication.
Electro-compulsive therapy was suggested once.
I was treated with NLP*, CBT*, DBT*, EFT* and EDMR* to rid me of my emotional pain and to make me function in this world like what was expected.
Various herbalists, naturopaths, and Chinese herbalists had tried to help me with capsules, powders, liquids, sprays, and acupuncture needles.
I received beautiful Reiki healing sessions. Sessions of fascinating hands-on healing from current and past generational pain through Body Work.
I had hours and hours of Hellerwork - Structural Integration of deep fascia tissue and memories. I studied and received many sessions of Remedial Massage and Myofascial Release Therapy.
I had Shamanic Healing video calls from healers in Tasmania, whilst I was lying on the floor of my bedroom.
I had aligned with my celestial stars and laid my Chakra stones upon my body.
Of course, I also listened to self-help and motivational podcasts. Self-help books and seminars, including a week long one with Anthony Robbins. My belief was that "they" had the answers to my feelings of worthiness.
I have always dabbled with Yoga + meditation in the hope of "inner peace". My intentions were always to eradicate the pain I felt on the inside. I believed pain was not healthy and I needed to do what it takes to get rid of it. I wanted a life with no pain. The life I thought everyone (but me) was living. These beliefs set me up on a very exhausting and unhealthy path.
Even after 20 years of trying to "fix" myself, I still found myself in the Emergency Department on New Year's Day begging for drugs to help me with my anxiety!
After studying Conscious Parenting and embodying the Soul Care processes of Spiritual Psychology, I can NOW thank the Universe for throwing me that wake up call in the Emergency Department.
I was disconnected from my source energy of inner strength and inner power. I felt incapacitated and devastatingly disappointed with myself for "failing" once again.
During a session with a Soul Care Coach I learned how I needed to embrace these BIG feelings with compassion to set a safe space to hear the messages and insights which will assist with my evolution. I started to feel reconnected with myself, my needs, my truth, my purpose. My connection to the infinite Universe began to grow too.
This emotional breakdown in the Emergency Department gave me the opportunity to hear what I truly needed. It wasn't more medication or psychological assessments (although I know they do have a place).
The most important thing I needed to learn was that I wasn't broken. I needed to remind myself I am not with a lifelong "chemical imbalance" from a Mental Illness that can only be healed through medication and a team of medical professionals.
I needed to know I was not weak. Not hopeless. Not helpless. Not incapable. Not less than anyone else.
And that I am and always have been a DIVINE, LOVING, WORTHY, CREATIVE, JOYFUL, and WHOLE being.
I needed to hear that my feelings were benevolent. No matter how deep, dark and painful, my feelings were here to bring me messages of truth. Fear and doubt were actually here to guide me back to my authentic self.
I needed to say "Hey, you are on a path that is not in alignment with your higher self. You are believing things that are not inherently true."
To ignore these feelings; stuff them down with medication or food; to find the answers in another course or book; to project these feelings onto someone else was a waste of an opportunity to RETURN BACK HOME TO ME.
Messages and wisdom that could reconnect me with my sense of divine essence.
I had strayed from my authentic truth of knowing who I truly am.
No situation and nobody can ever take this away from me.
Others opinions of me nor past traumas can define me.
I am not alone in this journey as my Soul has the support of the Universe with me at every turn.
My Soul is beyond the physical that I can see.
I have an extraordinary ESSENCE and a LIGHT to shine. I have GIFTS to give. I am unlimited LOVE, ABUNDANT, OPPORTUNITIES come, and I can be in FLOW.
These words are not words of affirmation to practice. They are not from a motivational talk I memorized.
They are what I NOW truly believe and KNOW of myself.
And I genuinely believe they are also about YOU.
No therapist or pill has ever taught me this in my 45 years. But I thank you with all my heart Dr Shefali Tsabary and Suzi Lula (and ALL the beautiful coaches I have met along the way) for teaching me the way of SOUL CARE.
I am here to teach you the way now...
Please reach out so you too can find your inner truths.
Renée
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*Conscious Parenting calls for patience, understanding, and awareness. It calls for you to be intentional about the parenting decisions you make. Most importantly it calls for the parent's evolution, not fixing the child.
Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) builds on the idea that a realistic evaluation of our thinking can improve our emotional state and behaviour.
Neuro-linguistic Programming (NLP) is a psychological approach using scientific and esoteric fields to create ‘tools’ which can be applied to improve one's thoughts and behaviours.
Dialectical behaviour therapy (DBT) is a type of talk therapy designed for the specific emotional challenges of people who experience very strong emotions.
Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT) physical tapping on different parts of the body helps balance energy and reduce the physical and emotional pain.
Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) is a psychotherapy treatment used to treat post-traumatic stress systems.
Hellerwork Structural Integration is an approach that incorporates three aspects to address pain in the body, release tension, and stress. The three aspects are deep tissue bodywork, somatic dialogue and movement education. https://hellerwork.com
Reiki is a Japanese technique for stress reduction and relaxation that also promotes healing. It is administered by "laying on hands" and is based on the idea that an unseen "life force energy" flows through us and is what causes us to be alive.
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